Hmmm...something I'm afraid of?! I'm not really sure. I mean, I don't like snakes and I don't like roaches. But I think what I'm afraid of at this point in my life is screwing up in raising Kali.
It's not something I ever thought about before, even when I was pregnant. But now that she's getting more into learning things, and I realize that pretty soon I'M going to be the one to teach her the things she's going to need for the rest of her life...I'm pretty terrified!
Since she doesn't go to a daycare, and our parents watch her during the day...I'm kinda scared that she's not going to learn much. So I'm afraid that she's going to be behind when she eventually going to school.
But I'm also afraid of TJ or I losing our job. In October 2007 I was going to start a new job. On the Friday before I was to start that job, TJ called me and said he had gotten fired (it was a wrongful termination, and we were able to fight it), but it scared the mess out of me! Because we had just gotten married not even a year prior to this, we were not the "saving" kind of people. So we had no cushion to fall back on.
So, now that we have a mortgage, a baby, and me trying to get a new vehicle - I'm so scared that something will happen and we won't be able to provide for Kali. When we bought the house, it was just TJ and I and we could pay for everything just fine. But then when you throw a baby in the mix...things get tight.
So those are a couple of my fears. Well, among snakes and creepy crawly things! :)
~Stephanie
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